Dear Blogger friends sorry for not posting anything in a while. Trust me nothing really exciting has happened: 0 Well some good things here and there, come may I will be making an announcement... no I am not pregnant. Some of you may already know :) Now, if I can only make it until May without going insane. I am a very private person and really do not share many personal stuff on my blog, but I am beyond that now. As some of you may already know, Brandon and I have been trying to have a baby. It has been an emotional roller coaster ride, last year was the worst. Watching all my friends, my sister get pregnant while I remained... not even close to being pregnant was really difficult for me. There were a lot of days that I cried out of the blue because all I wanted was a baby. So at the end of 2009 I made a new year’s resolution, I was going to go with the flow. Not concentrate on why my prayers were not answered right then and there, rather I would concentrate on things that made me happy. January was a little tough, but after that I can honestly say it has been smooth sailing until this month. I was put on birth control to help with my regulation. I have been moody, sensitive, depressed.... oh and the horrors it has done to me physically. I sometimes feel pregnant but I am assured by my doctor that it is perfectly normal and those are the side effects.... OK so the side effects are similar to pregnancy..... hmmmm So I apologize, it I have been cranky, brushed you off.... One thing it has done it has made me appreciate my hubby even more each day. If I cry, he lets me cry, if I am cranky he takes it (most of the time). Most importantly he is so compassionate and loves me on those days were I am a monster. Now and then he has to remind me that it is for the best and it is a process, and it makes me happy because I know all those bad days will give me happier days when I hold my baby. I don't want any sympathy, as I am beyond that point. I just needed to vent.
On happier news: 0 my business has been booming: 0 I have 4 weddings booked, and have my months booked before they even begin. God has been good to me, and for it I am very grateful. I think he answered my prayers, he said ... hey there silly girl, it's not your turn yet to get pregnant, I have other plans for you :) Yes, in my conversations with God he has a sense of humor :) Everything I have asked for God has granted me :) and my business booming is probably a little additional gift. I did not ask for it, I asked to be distracted from not being pregnant and that is what I got :0 I am still learning and I make mistakes with my photography, but I have made some progress.
Ok, so that pretty much sums it up folks, I am happy today as can be feeling nauseas but happy :)
Because I cannot post without a picture, here is a picture of my hubby and I that was recently taken.
